I am scared!
I am scared of death!
I am scared of people dying, even if I don't love them or even know them.
I am scared of hearing about people I have met or even know vaguely about, dying and leaving the world as we know it!
Hinduism says that we keep on taking birth again and again on this earth. This theory is probably created to make us feel that our loved ones have never left us. It probably was created by somebody who thought that life is too dynamic.
For me, once they are gone, they are forever gone. They leave us, they abandon us, they are not the same ever again,they kill us. They don't love us the way they do right now. They never will. We will not love them the way we do right now.
I feel bad for a lady who loved somebody more than she loved anybody. I feel for her today because she will from now on always alone. She will be lonely till her last breath.
I want to travel and visit places all by myself. A part of me understands that it will be fun but then there is another part of me who thinks its wrong. Its not my duties which stop me. Its wrong because I don't want to stay away from the love of my life. It is wrong to go. I wish I die before him, but I don't want him to suffer. I want him to be happy and if being happy means to kill some of your dreams, I will do it because my greatest dream is to live happily with him, so that when he goes away I stand there, smiling and thinking that we made the best of our lives. Even if we don't meet in some other life, we made our life today worthwhile.
He loves me! I love him! We live together! We have made our life worth loving! I don't him to leave, because after all he is the love of my life!
PS: Dedicated to Dr Bawa! I am sorry for your loss, mam! I hope the love of your life will forever give you strength to survive this!
I am scared of death!
I am scared of people dying, even if I don't love them or even know them.
I am scared of hearing about people I have met or even know vaguely about, dying and leaving the world as we know it!
Hinduism says that we keep on taking birth again and again on this earth. This theory is probably created to make us feel that our loved ones have never left us. It probably was created by somebody who thought that life is too dynamic.
For me, once they are gone, they are forever gone. They leave us, they abandon us, they are not the same ever again,they kill us. They don't love us the way they do right now. They never will. We will not love them the way we do right now.
I feel bad for a lady who loved somebody more than she loved anybody. I feel for her today because she will from now on always alone. She will be lonely till her last breath.
I want to travel and visit places all by myself. A part of me understands that it will be fun but then there is another part of me who thinks its wrong. Its not my duties which stop me. Its wrong because I don't want to stay away from the love of my life. It is wrong to go. I wish I die before him, but I don't want him to suffer. I want him to be happy and if being happy means to kill some of your dreams, I will do it because my greatest dream is to live happily with him, so that when he goes away I stand there, smiling and thinking that we made the best of our lives. Even if we don't meet in some other life, we made our life today worthwhile.
He loves me! I love him! We live together! We have made our life worth loving! I don't him to leave, because after all he is the love of my life!
PS: Dedicated to Dr Bawa! I am sorry for your loss, mam! I hope the love of your life will forever give you strength to survive this!
